Author’s Note
Most people have a need or desire to belong to something. Sometimes this need is satisfied by memberships to social clubs, community organizations or churches. And sometimes this need is satisfied by memberships to community web sites, chat rooms, and blogging communities where our commitment level can be as much or as little as we choose and our true identities can remain anonymous. What I find intriguing about the latter is how the relationships we develop with virtual unknowns can become more real to us than the people we physically interact with on a daily basis. Why is that? Is it because our online personalities are less fake than their real-life counterparts? In the case of closeted homosexuals, I would have to say yes, our online personalities are much more real. Anonymity gives our alter egos the freedom to express themselves in ways we either cannot or will not in real life. But what happens when an online friend suddenly pushes his way into a closeted man’s physical life? For most, the distinct separation of these two worlds would be imperative. For username: 7mark8, it is imperative that these two worlds collide.
Flip Flop
12/ 26 11:07 pm
Hey guys, new to blogging here. To be honest with you, I’m pretty much new to the whole gay scene. I’m like a 42 year old virgin – not sexually, of course, but being fresh “out of the closet” I am a sort of virgin to gay social interaction outside of what I’ve seen in porn.
Of all the porn in my collection, the one that always does it for me is the scene where two guys flip flop – four consecutive times. I can’t remember the last time I reloaded my gun four consecutive times. Getting penetrated was like instant Viagra for these boys. They’d get so aroused by it that they could hardly wait to flip their buddy over and give it right back to him.
It’s not like this in real life though is it? Every time I step foot in a gay bar the first question asked of me is “are you a top?” If I admit to being one I suddenly become very popular (apparently there is a shortage of tops out there). And forget about claiming to be “versatile.” In the gay world “versatile” is code for “bottoms” who aren’t ready to admit it yet. And even if I did meet a true “versatile,” who has the strength or energy to penetrate, unload and then reload while getting penetrated FOUR CONSECUTIVE TIMES? It’s a nice fantasy but let’s face it – what are the odds of this happening on a regular basis? Plus, choosing a role and sticking to it would eliminate awkward moments like the last time I got with a top.
“JUST LAY THERE AND TAKE IT LIKE A MAN” he ordered.
I bolted when he suggested tying me up.
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Bookie21 • 12/27 9:06 am
You too huh? I don’t understand a top who wants a bottom just to lay there. Personally, I want my partner to let me know how it feels. So if I’m rotating my hips or just doing a lot of moaning and groaning… it spurs me on to greater pleasure for my man. Or at least I hope it does.
7mark8 • 12/27 5:47 pm
Agreed. If it’s all about the top then what’s in it for the bottom?
G-spot4 • 12/27 10:16 am
Welcome to blogland!
7mark8 • 12/27 5:48 pm
Thanks man, glad to be here!
Dominance & Submission
12/29 10:33 pm
I ran into Mr. Lay-There-And-Take-It-Like-A-Man again last night. His name is Dave and he was sandwiched between his ex-partner and another guy at the bar. Amazing how much younger Dave looks in bar lighting. Not that Dave is old necessarily. He’s 44 but with the body of a 22 year old. If you look closely at his face you could probably guess his age. Still, he has a boyish face – large eyes, ears that stick out just a tad too far, straight nose, pouty jaw and cherubic lips. Plus, his smaller frame and youthful naivety make him appear younger as well. I grabbed the open bar stool next to his ex.
“Wait… What?!?!?” I forced my way into their conversation. “Who was abused as a child?”
“Dave was” the ex informed.
“OMG! I’m sorry to hear that Dave.”
Dave studied me awhile before continuing. “They used to grab me by the back of my neck and force my face into the mattress.”
(Awkward pause)
“They?” I gasped.
Dave leaned in closer to me. “Yeah, two of my older brother’s friends. Then they’d force me to lick up their cum.”
“Why didn’t you report them?”
“Because I was embarrassed…” he squirmed. “And even though it hurt like hell… it was also… kind of hot.”
(Another awkward pause)
“Yeah, from what I’ve been reading rape is a major homo-erotic theme.”
Dave stared blankly at me.
“So… is this why you wanted to tie me up the other night?” I asked.
“Yeah, I’m kind of into dominance and submission now” he explained.
“I see” I nodded.
“So, can I tie you up tonight?” Dave asked.
Why do people always spring stuff like this on me just as I’m taking a drink? I coughed and laughed nervously but the unnatural stillness of Dave’s face told me laughter was not the appropriate response.
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Bookie21 • 12/30 1:29 pm
From my very limited experience with masters/dominance the one man I was with told me… NEVER, NEVER allow yourself to be restrained by someone you do not trust with your life because he holds it in his hands.
7mark8 • 12/30 5:47 pm
I imagine being abused as a child would affect one’s sexual attitude throughout his entire life. But you’re right, best not to encourage him. The last thing I need right now is some sexual deviant acting out his pent up aggressions toward his childhood molesters on me. I don’t care how good looking he is. Good advice Bookie21.
Jethro • 12/30 2:26 pm
I’m getting an old “Lost in Space” re-run… “Danger Will Robinson, DANGER!” lol
Bookie21 said it pretty well
7mark8 • 12/30 5:49 pm
LOL. “Danger Will Robinson, DANGER!” Thanks for the trip down memory lane. I used to have a crush on the 2nd in command. What was his name again? Never mind. I just googled it. The actor’s name was Mark Goddard.
Chomping at the nip
1/2 5:51 pm
I never thought I’d get this close to orgasm simply by letting a guy tongue my nipples. Yet there I was on New Year’s Eve arching my back like a bitch in heat. But the more I responded to his tantalizing tongue action, the rougher he got.
“No buddy, do it gentle like before – just your tongue” I cooed taking his head in my hands.
He obliged but only half-heartedly. So I tried giving him some motivation.
“Oh yeah, that’s it buddy. You’ve got me ready to explode!”
He clamped down hard on my right nipple.
“DUDE! GET OFF!” I pushed him away. “My nipples are way too sensitive.”
He never touched my nipples again after that.
So what is it about the fragile male ego that makes us so sensitive to criticism in bed? I’d like to scream at the top of my lungs “GET OVER IT MEN!” But like my incredibly hot Sunday school teacher (and no, not my first gay experience) used to say “Whenever you point your finger at someone look at your hand, there will be three more fingers pointing right back at you.” OK fine. So I’m no better than the next guy. For instance, I’m a grinder not a pounder. I pride myself on my ability to gently grind my way deep inside a guy by using circular motions with my hips. Some guys like this – others don’t. Mr. I’m-Not-Touching-Your-Nipples-Again preferred to be pounded. I obliged but only half-heartedly and focused on the porn that was playing instead. So now I ask myself “Why didn’t I enjoy pounding him? Did I really hate it or was my fragile male ego hurt when he didn’t respond to the grinding action I take so much pride in?”
My New Years resolution: Find a way to help myself and others learn to let go of our fragile male egos…
Yeah right. And a couple of chiseled blond Adonis’ with 6-pack abs, 12 inches and firm but supple bubble butts might suddenly appear in my bed tonight.
Oh well, Happy New Years anyway gentlemen!
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ConjugateMe • 1/3 5:22 am
Yeah, I agree with you. Nipples are very sensitive for me too.
7mark8 • 1/3 5:35 pm
This was a first for me. Do nipples become less sensitive the more you have them played with?
Cowboy • 1/6 6:40 pm
Hey Mark you ever thought about writing stories here, your first paragraph had me getting hard. You seem to have a way with words and descriptions and a variety of experiences to write about. I for one would like to hear more about them.
7mark8 • 1/6 7:00 pm
Wow! My writing really got you hard? Now that’s a compliment! To be honest with you, my writing used to be so filled with negativity that even I could hardly stand to read it back. Going public has forced me to remove all emotional garbage or whatever it was that was making my writing unbearable and it’s actually becoming a lot of fun now. Thanks for the compliment Cowboy!
